hi! i'm pebble

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i’m a 25 years old disabled nonbinary creature currently living in Baltimore, Maryland (US). i use it / she pronouns interchangeably. it's nice to meet you!

i make things

i like to spend my time working on projects. drawing has been my main creative outlet since 2017, but i also work on other kinds of things! like this website, the Critter Cafe / critters.gay fediverse instances, self hosting cloud services for myself and other random computer stuff. lately i've also been getting into 3D modeling and crafts!

i like computers

i can't help it, i'm a computer toucher. i got my first personal computer when i was about 7 years old; i didn't know how to use it or do anything on it and i didn't have anyone to ask, so i just did what i do best and tried to figure it out on my own. over time i taught myself a lot and now there's honestly not much i can't do with computers if i set my mind to it. it can be a very thankless hobby at times, but i can't imagine my life without it.

i type funny

i message with people online a Lot, so over time i developed a somewhat different way of typing. mainly i always write everything in lowercase, except for when i want to put emphasis on Things. i also use commas instead of periods sometimes, like this ,,, it's mostly a vibe thing. i also like to put spaces around punctuation sometimes to kind of highlight it, ( like this ) or / this . my name is also always lowercase, but i don't mind if others capitalize the P, even if i don't prefer it like that.

my body / brain don't work right

i'm disabled! it took me a while to figure this out because people kept gaslighting me about it throughout my whole life. i have a few things going on and they seriously affects my ability to get things done. to name a few funny acronyms, i have ADHD, OCD and PTSD. i'm also neurodivergent, but i wouldn't consider that a disability on its own, its the social and economic landscape we live in that makes it one. i also can't walk or stand up for very long.

i have a few special interests!

i don’t talk about these very often because i worry i’ll come off as annoying, but i’ll be happy to talk your ears off about any of these if you’re interested! don't expect me to actually know much about all of them, i just like to talk about them

  • rain world
  • computers
  • ui & ux design
  • infrastructure, especially power infrastructure: transmission towers, substations, wind turbines, radio towers, all that kinda stuff
  • trains
  • half life 2 and source games in general
  • space & space exploration
  • sound design
  • making lists,,

why pebble?

the name comes from Five Pebbles, a character from rain world. i don't really relate to the character, i just kept using the name for different purposes as a reference to the game. i named my fursona "pebble" and eventually adapted the name for myself. i went by "nexii" before this

stamps!

equipment & software

things i use to make stuff!

equipment

  • main computer - macbook pro (m1 pro, 14")
  • art tablet - huion kamvas pro 13 (2.5k)
  • mouse - logitech mx master 3s
  • keyboard - nuphy halo 65
  • server - dell optiplex 3050 (this site runs on this!)

software

  • drawing - clip studio paint, aseprite
  • 3d modeling - blender
  • notes - obsidian
  • coding - vscodium

games that are special to me

i like to keep a list of games that are special to me for one reason or another :3 here's a list of them along with very brief descriptions:

favorites

  • rain world - be a creature and explore abandoned industrial remnants of a lost civilization, comes with the best worldbuilding i’ve seen in a game
  • 1000xRESIST - a game about generational trauma and history repeating itself. the best narrative game i've ever played.
  • cobalt core - card game but the characters are SO LOVABLE I WOULD DIE FOR RIGGS (also one of the best OSTs ever, T+39 is my fave song by far)
  • tunic - wonderful worldbuilding, some of the best sound design i’ve seen in a game, puzzle solving that will have you writing down notes and coming up with theories
  • in stars and time - a wonderfully written game with extremely relatable characters about depression, trauma and the importance of communicating your feelings

very special to me

  • portal 1 & 2 - i feel like everyone knows these! portal was one of my earliest hyperfixations
  • half life 2 - i somehow played this after portal, been obsessed with it since. i don’t care much for the first one surprisingly enough
  • oneshot - v meta game that has you going through your computer files to solve puzzles, the main character is SO CUTE
  • disco elysium - one of a kind, easily one of the best games ever made, i would die for kim kitsuragi
  • inscryption - card game except it keeps surprising you with crazy twists and really cool lore, i love p03 so much
  • cocoon - puzzle game with twists and out of the box thinking that had me going WHAT YOU CAN DO THAT all the time
  • far: lone sails; changing tides - vehicular exploration games, focus on satisfying big machinery, really scratches my train autism itch
  • in other waters - play as a swimsuit OS while exploring an alien planet’s ocean, really good narrative, love the UI design
  • citizen sleeper - you’re a robot on a space station, your body comes with planned obsolescence, try to survive while escaping from the corp that made you, really good writing
  • citizen sleeper 2 - builds on top of the mechanics and story of the first one, the story feels a lot more personal than large-scale, i like it just as much as the first one if not more
  • the beginner's guide - emotional meta narrative about the process of creating art
  • kittenburst - the gameplay is really ass honestly but the vibes the music the environments the characters the story, it's all so good.
  • signalis - east german space lesbian game. seriously though the gameplay is a lot like early silent hill type games but the VIBES are phenomenal and it's a really cool expressionist game
  • great god grove - a very queer, wonderfully written story-focused game with lovely characters, great music and amazing artwork.

really enjoyed

  • control - scp but as an AAA game, really wonderfully written and designed
  • dredge - cosmic horror fishing, amazing vibes, chill gameplay
  • chicory: a colorful tale - wonderful game about dealing with depression as an artist
  • toem - super chill game where u just take pictures of things, it’s so sweet
  • titanfall 2 - really good movement shooter!! loved to play the multiplayer when it was still active
  • spiritfarer - guide many wonderful characters to their final resting place as you learn more about them and their lives. really chill gameplay, made me cry.
  • observation - kinda like 2001 a space odyssey except you play as HAL (not literally) and there's more cosmic horror
  • night in the woods - this one's really well known i think. a cat college dropout in her early 20s returning to her small hometown and weird things happen
  • sayonara wild hearts - it's like a playable visualizer to an album, it flows so wonderfully. it's only like an hour long but a wonderful experience.
  • inside - dark body horror sidescroller, kinda like limbo 2 (by the same devs too)
  • stray - cat game. extremely overrated but i really enjoyed it for what it was, a cute little walking simulator with a nice world. should NOT have won best indie game over tunic.
  • ultrakill - game's hard and it really frustrated me at first with how front and center it places your live performance rating but after getting over that i had a really good time with it
  • crypt custodian - a cute little metroidvania with adorable characters and a really pretty art style