November 15, 2024

hi! i'm pebble

i make stuff

i like to spend my time working on projects. i can't not be creating, it just feels wrong. lately i’ve been gradually returning to drawing after taking it really slow for a while due to burnout. drawing has been my main creative outlet since like 2017, but i also work on lots of different kinds of projects! like this website, a discord bot, the critter.cafe mastodon instance, self hosting cloud services for myself and other random computer stuff

i like computers

like, a lot. ok, sometimes i'll say i hate them, it's a complicated relationship. i got my first personal computer when i was about 7 years old, it was an old decommissioned dell work laptop. i didn't know how to use it or do anything on it and i didn't have anyone to ask, so i just did what i do best and tried to figure it out on my own. computers have always been a big part of my life and i can't imagine it without them. i have a lot of fun working with them, even if it can be a thankless hobby sometimes. sometimes i get really affectionate towards them too, it's A Thing.

i type funny

you might notice i have a few typing quirks! for one, i always type in lowercase, except for the Gay Emphasis Zones. i started typing like this randomly at one point and now it feels really wrong to Not, so i don't even try. i also like to use emotes with one eye crossed out, like using xvu instead of uvu - this is so it matches my sona who's blind in its right eye. it's a style/vibe/kink thing, depending on when you ask :v i'll also use xvu over xwu, this is a holdover from when i was a yinglet and the v represented the shelltooth :}

my body / brain don't work right

i'm disabled! it took me a while to figure this out because people kept gaslighting me about it throughout my whole childhood. i have a bunch of stuff going on, including being autistic, having ADHD, PTSD, a bunch of other things that come with those, hEDS (i can't walk or stand up for long without braces) and BIID

i have a few special interests!

i don’t talk about these very often because i worry i’ll come off as annoying, but i’ll be happy to talk your ears off about any of these if you’re interested! don't expect me to actually know much about all of them, i just like to talk about them

• trains
• infrastructure, especially power infrastructure: transmission towers, substations, wind turbines, radio towers, all that kinda stuff
• half life 2 and source games in general
• rain world
• computers
• space & space exploration
• sound design
• making lists,,

stamps!

games that are special to me

i like to keep a list of games that are special to me for one reason or another :3 here's a list of them along with very brief descriptions:

favorites

• rain world - be a creature and explore abandoned industrial remnants of a lost civilization, comes with the best worldbuilding i’ve seen in a game
• 1000xRESIST - a game about generational trauma and history repeating itself. the best narrative game i've ever played.
• cobalt core - card game but the characters are SO LOVABLE I WOULD DIE FOR RIGGS (also one of the best OSTs ever, T+39 is my fave song by far)
• tunic - wonderful worldbuilding, some of the best sound design i’ve seen in a game, puzzle solving that will have you writing down notes and coming up with theories

very special to me

• portal 1 & 2 - i feel like everyone knows these! portal was one of my earliest hyperfixations
• half life 2 - i somehow played this after portal, been obsessed with it since. i don’t care much for the first one surprisingly enough
• oneshot - v meta game that has you going through your computer files to solve puzzles, the main character is SO CUTE
• disco elysium - one of a kind, easily one of the best games ever made, i would die for kim kitsuragi
• inscryption - card game except it keeps surprising you with crazy twists and really cool lore, i love p03 so much
• cocoon - puzzle game with twists and out of the box thinking that had me going WHAT YOU CAN DO THAT all the time
• far: lone sails; changing tides - vehicular exploration games, focus on satisfying big machinery, really scratches my train autism itch
• in other waters - play as a swimsuit OS while exploring an alien planet’s ocean, really good narrative, love the UI design
• citizen sleeper - you’re a robot on a space station, your body comes with planned obsolescence, try to survive while escaping from the corp that made you, really good writing
• the beginner's guide - emotional meta narrative about the process of creating art
• signalis - east german space lesbian game. seriously though the gameplay is a lot like early silent hill type games but the VIBES are phenomenal and it's a really cool expressionist game

really enjoyed

• control - scp but as an AAA game, really wonderfully written and designed
• dredge - cosmic horror fishing, amazing vibes, chill gameplay
• chicory: a colorful tale - wonderful game about dealing with depression as an artist
• toem - super chill game where u just take pictures of things, it’s so sweet
• titanfall 2 - really good movement shooter!! loved to play the multiplayer when it was still active
• spiritfarer - guide many wonderful characters to their final resting place as you learn more about them and their lives. really chill gameplay, made me cry.
• observation - kinda like 2001 a space odyssey except you play as HAL (not literally) and there's more cosmic horror
• night in the woods - this one's really well known i think. a cat college dropout in her early 20s returning to her small hometown and weird things happen
• sayonara wild hearts - it's like a playable visualizer to an album, it flows so wonderfully. it's only like an hour long but a wonderful experience.
• inside - dark body horror sidescroller, kinda like limbo 2 (by the same devs too)
• stray - cat game. extremely overrated but i really enjoyed it for what it was, a cute little walking simulator with a nice world. should NOT have won best indie game over tunic.
• ultrakill - game's hard and it really frustrated me at first with how front and center it places your live performance rating but after getting over that i had a really good time with it