i’m a 26 years old disabled nonbinary creature currently living in Baltimore, Maryland (US). i use it / she pronouns interchangeably. it's nice to meet you!
i make things
i like to spend my time working on projects. drawing has been my main creative outlet since 2017, but i also work on other kinds of things! like this website, computer nonsense like running Critter Cafe / critters.gay and other random computer stuff. lately i've also been getting into 3D modeling and crafts!
i type funny
i spend a lot of time online, so over time i developed a somewhat "different" way of typing. it's not very unique, but i almost always write in lowercase, except for when i want to put emphasis on Things. i also use commas instead of periods sometimes, like this ,,, it's mostly based on vibes. i also like to put spaces around punctuation sometimes to kind of highlight it, ( like this ) or / this . i also always type my name in lowercase, but i don't mind if others capitalize the P!
i'm disabled
i have a few things going on and they seriously affect my ability to get things done. i'm neurodivergent and i deal with ADHD, OCD and PTSD. i try not to let these define me as a person, but i have to recognize that i can't do as much as easily as others can - at least not while society at large treats disability as the individual's fault, and as something to be solved, rather than accommodated.
i have a few special interests!
these are things i'm very interesting in and like thinking about / exploring. i may not necessarily know a lot about them, they're just things i like a lot.
- rain world
- ui & ux design
- infrastructure, especially power infrastructure: transmission towers, substations, wind turbines, radio towers, all that kinda stuff
- trains & other heavy machinery
- half life 2 and source games in general
- space & space exploration
- sound design
- making lists,,
why pebble?
i took the name from Five Pebbles, a character in Rain World. it started as me using the name for different purposes, eventually shortening it to just "pebble" and using it as a name for my sona. i liked it so much that i started using it for myself too! i went by "nexii" before this. it's worth noting that this was before rain world's surge in popularity, when it was a weird niche game nobody knew about, i never expected it to get this popular! i also like it when people shorten my name in different ways, like "peb" or "pel" (the later being a form of the name that's visually cut off halfway through the letter b, if you're curious!).
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equipment & software
things i use to make stuff!
equipment
- main computer - macbook pro, "pelBook" ( m1 pro, 14" )
- i was "given" this computer, there's no way i could afford it on my own. if i had a choice, i'd probably be using a framework laptop instead with some kinda linux on it
- art tablet - huion kamvas pro 13 (2.5k)
- mouse - logitech mx master 3s
- i really wouldn't recommend it
- keyboard - nuphy halo 65
- server - dell optiplex 3050, "ganymede" ( you loaded my website from this! )
software
- drawing - clip studio paint, aseprite
- 3d modeling - blender
- notes - obsidian
- coding - vscodium
games that are special to me
i like to keep a list of games that are special to me for one reason or another! here's a list of them along with very brief descriptions:
favorites
- rain world - the purest expression of an artistic vision i've seen in a videogame, with worldbuilding like no other and abandoned industrial environments you can truly get immersed in as a slugcat.
- 1000xRESIST - a game about generational trauma and history repeating itself. the best narrative game i've ever played.
- cobalt core - card game but the characters are SO LOVABLE I WOULD DIE FOR RIGGS (also one of the best OSTs ever, T+39 is my fave song from it by far)
- tunic - wonderful worldbuilding, some of the best sound design i’ve seen in a game, puzzle solving that will have you writing down notes and coming up with theories
- in stars and time - a wonderfully written game with extremely relatable characters about depression, trauma and the importance of communicating your feelings
very special to me
- portal 1 & 2 - i feel like everyone knows these! portal was one of my earliest hyperfixations
- half life 2 - i somehow played this after portal, been obsessed with it since. i don’t care much for the first one surprisingly enough
- oneshot - a very meta game that has you going through your computer files to solve puzzles, the main character is SO CUTE
- disco elysium - one of a kind, easily one of the best games ever made, i would die for kim kitsuragi
- inscryption - card game except it keeps surprising you with crazy twists and really cool lore, i love p03 so much
- cocoon - puzzle game with twists and outside of the box thinking that had me going WHAT YOU CAN DO THAT all the time
- far: lone sails; changing tides - vehicular exploration games, focus on satisfying big machinery, really scratches my train autism itch
- in other waters - play as a swimsuit OS while exploring an alien planet’s ocean, really good narrative, love the UI design
- citizen sleeper - you’re a robot on a space station, your body comes with planned obsolescence, try to survive while escaping from the corp that made you, really good writing
- citizen sleeper 2 - builds on top of the mechanics and story of the first one, the story feels a lot more personal than large-scale, i like it just as much as the first one if not more
- the beginner's guide - emotional meta narrative about the process of creating art
- kittenburst - the gameplay is really ass honestly but the vibes the music the environments the characters the story, it's all so good.
- signalis - east german space lesbian game. seriously though the gameplay is a lot like early silent hill type games but the VIBES are phenomenal and it's a really cool expressionist game
- great god grove - a very queer, wonderfully written story-focused game with lovely characters, great music and amazing artwork.
- easy delivery co. - a very cute little delivery driving game with ps1 style graphics. the vibes are phenomenal, the writing is very cute and sweet and the story is surprisingly emotional. it left a lasting impression on me.
- rain world: the watcher - a very enjoyable expansion to my favorite game that almost feels like a sequel. full review here
- adventures with anxiety - a free 30 minute visual novel style game where you play as anxiety. i feel like it seriously changed how i view my disorder and helped me deal with it better. play it here.
really enjoyed
- control - scp but as an AAA game, really wonderfully written and designed
- dredge - cosmic horror fishing, amazing vibes, chill gameplay
- chicory: a colorful tale - wonderful game about dealing with depression as an artist
- toem - super chill game where u just take pictures of things, it’s so sweet
- titanfall 2 - really good movement shooter!! loved to play the multiplayer when it was still active
- spiritfarer - guide many wonderful characters to their final resting place as you learn more about them and their lives. really chill gameplay, made me cry.
- observation - kinda like 2001 a space odyssey except you play as HAL (not literally) and there's just as much cosmic horror
- night in the woods - this one's really well known i think. a cat college dropout in her early 20s returning to her small hometown and weird things happen
- sayonara wild hearts - it's like a playable visualizer to an album, it flows so wonderfully. it's only like an hour long but a wonderful experience.
- inside - dark body horror sidescroller, kinda like limbo 2 (by the same devs too)
- stray - cat game. extremely overrated but i really enjoyed it for what it was, a cute little walking simulator with a nice world. should NOT have won best indie game over tunic.
- ultrakill - game's hard and it really frustrated me at first with how front and center it places your live performance rating but after getting over that i had a really good time with it
- crypt custodian - a cute little metroidvania with adorable characters and a really pretty art style
- manifold garden - a very pretty worldless puzzle game, it definitely has frustrating moments but the wonderful world, visuals, sound design and music more than make up for it